It’s that heart of gold, & that stardust soul that make you beautiful. – R.M. Broderick
My mum has always said from the moment that Harper was born that she is an angel on earth and I am certain she is right.
When I was younger all I wanted to be in life was a mum. I always dreamt of having babies someday. My mum got me a baby doll and I named her Tiffany, I took her everywhere with me. I always said if I ever have a baby girl when I grew up that would be her name haha!
Marcus and I decided that we would try for a baby when we were pretty young. I was 18, some people would say that’s a dumb thing to do but we knew that we were meant to be together.
It was exciting and scary all rolled in to one. The years passed and nothing happened. We didn’t stop trying but we just thought if it happens it happens if it doesn’t it doesn’t.
In to our mid 20s I started to think that there was something really wrong with me. I would pray to God every night to bless us with a baby but nothing.
Family members and friends were having babies left right and center and it was so hard to be happy for them.
Mother’s Day sucked because that’s all I wanted to be, a mum and it wasn’t happening. I went out and got a little baby girl outfit to keep for when it ever happened, I was convinced that my first baby would always be a girl. I wrote a letter to my not even conceived child saying how much I wanted and needed her.
We got married and then a few years later our miracle happened. The moment I saw those two little red lines on that stick my life had a whole new meaning. Everything I had ever wanted was becoming reality and I was over the moon.
There really is no words to describe the happiness and love I felt in my heart for the new life I was growing inside me.
The next 8 months were magical. I praise God for everything even the morning sickness and sleepless night. I was just so happy to be carrying my sweet baby.
Hearing that magical little healthy heartbeat pounding away made my heart skip 10 beats!
The first time I seen her on the ultrasound screen my heart melted! I burst in to tears of joy. It made it all feel so real to see our little peanut bouncing around in there.
Our second ultrasound we found out the sex…. IT’S A….. GIRL! Oh my word I was so happy. Don’t get me wrong I would have been just as happy if it was a boy but all along I knew I would have a baby girl.
She was a week overdue and I had to be induced to have her. They tried so many things to try and bring on labor but nothing was working. I had to stay in hospital overnight and in the early hours of the morning I started to have contractions.
They broke my waters and it began….hell! The worst time but the best time of my life. I was very sick and after being in labour all day and most of the night they started talking about a c section. I was fine with that it’s what I wanted. While they were organising it all Harper’s heart beat started to slow down so they rushed me for the emergency section.
Minuets passed by and it felt very strange all the tugging and movement. I could see the reflection in the light of what they where doing. Wow. That was intense. When she arrived she didn’t cry, I was so worried that there was something wrong. They took her over to the crib and did the tests that needed to be done. They wrapped her up like a burrito and put her on my chest. It was magic. My heart exploded with love. An unimaginable, overwhelming feeling of completeness.
I didn’t get to hold her for long. She was rushed off to ICU because of a temperature. She had some kind of infection in her body. They put her on an antibiotic through an IV in her arm which she had to have for a few days but she was able to stay with me while she was on it.
That night I didn’t sleep…she did, she slept like a champ. I should have been sleeping but I couldn’t, I was in awe of my real life, living, breathing baby girl! My angel. I just laid next to her and watched her sleeping all night.
Our lives become so much richer when Harper entered the world. Everyone that ever meets her falls in love with her. She has a heart of gold. She’s full of laugher and fun. She is caring, kind and compassionate. She adores her little brother. She loves animals. She loves to dance, sing and draw. She is extremely smart. She enjoys learning and loves going to school. She has a fierce side. She always thinks of others before herself.
I could go on and on about her but I have already written a bloody novel on her. Sorry about that guys, I’m very impressed if you have made it even halfway.
I feel extremely blessed and I am so grateful to God for answering my prayers and sending us our angel.